I was told I needed to journal to help deal with the stress of having a special needs child and being a single parent. So I decided to start. Where to start..how bout at the beginning.
Well I was I was 4 months pregnant when I found out my "husband" was cheating on me with 2 women. Yes the wife is the last to know..I never thought I would say that or be that. So I found out because one of the women said she would cheat only with married men who had no children so when I got pregnant she broke it off and felt she had to tell me..I was thousands of miles away from any family and did not want to worry them. So I kept it from my family but confronted him about it - which he admitted. He said it was over and he would try to work things out with me.
Well he didn't and I couldn't leave because my job paid 100% maternity so I was stuck. So I knew I at least had to stay till the birth. MW essentially ruined what was supposed to be a happy and joyous time. I was scared, hormonal and isolated because no one knew what was going on but me. Finally after months of being scared I finally told my mother. I was such a relief to tell someone.
That is enough for today.. more later.
Will journal twenty minutes later...
